Sometimes...I hate thinking.

Deep in thought today. Woke up late cause I went to bed super late (I just HAD to watch SAW) I didn't get to sleep until like...i don't know 2 a.m.? So not like me. So i attempted to climb out of bed into a full day of no accomplishment. When Im not busy doing something, I start to think. This can be good...but in this case it was bad. Unfortunately I found myself thinking nothing but negative. I feel trapped here sometimes. With my inability to drive at the moment, I have no where to go unless my Grandparents go somewhere, then I end up tagging along for a "thrill" when mainly its just grocery shopping. Sometimes, like today, I think "When is my life going to start? When will I have some responsibility and actually feel like i'm an adult?" I need this job, I feel like if I don't get it i'm back where I started. I have a loving boyfriend in my life, but for now I don't get to see him. I have many amazing friends, but getting out here is hard for them as well. I need to take action and get going. I feel like i'm in a race. Life shouldn't be a race, but today I feel like it is. I always try to live by "taking life slowly and enjoying the ride..." but how can I enjoy the ride when Im not on one? Its like this...Im waiting in the longest most boring line at cedar point, one so long I cant even see the end, and I want to ride the ride so badly. 
I guess I discovered something new today, I am NOT the type that can sit around the house doing next to nothing and enjoy it. Im the type whose dream is to get out there and go. Right now I cant, but maybe tuesday will be the end of that line, and I can finally sit down and enjoy the ride. :)

Gabs